I'm not sure how many fans i have here lol but i just wanna write something down.
Life has been better since i quit and allow myself to have a long break.
The 4~5 years I had done so much for a better career, I joined so many contests(srsly like having over 50 award papers...I dont even...), tried so many different jobs, going to varies of classes, and I knew most of the time, I felt crap, very negative, worried, low self esteem, afraid, and stressed. And I always know I need to change that, but I'm easy quitter, things never changed for long.
But during this break, I'm done with being a sad dog. I went to the places I always wanted to go, I got the things always wanna have. I organized my room better, decorating my own space. Taking care of the family, leading the little ones like a teacher. Most importantly learned how to be happier by being grateful. enjoying life in the moment.
I've been busy creating everyday. trying to put all the things that moves my heart in the room, recycle the trash and turn them into problem solver, get rid of the things i dont need anymore, stick on notes written with positive quotes and tips on the wall. It's wonderful.
Changing health habit is also my daily task, still working on it, but doing great so far. Less sweets and more fruity milkshakes. less sitting more sweating. less whining more working and learning. It's gonna take time lol.
I'm going to be a very creative, positive, happy, helpful, healthy, sexy, smart, brave, professional and fun adult. I'm still a sensitive rookie, seem to fall down all the time, but in this break i'll learn how to deal with it when i fall
Thanks for all the supportive people in my life. and bless whoever's reading this.